Posts Tagged ‘maintenance’

Ups and Downs

February 7, 2013


I’ve been fighting with these last five pounds of this 40 lb goal for a few weeks now. I can’t really complain because it is not mystery lingering weight. It is simply poor eating choices. Salt primarily. I will get within a pound or two of the goal and then eat a chips, or popcorn or overdo it on Thanksgiving… so it’s taking awhile to get back into weight loss mode.

That’s okay though. Including the pregnancy and miscarriage the fact that I’m only bouncing around in a 5 lb window is a good sign that I’m at least able to maintain my weight which I know will be the longer term goal.


10 weeks

January 10, 2013

The obsessive craving for spicy pickled pepper seems to have abated, and with it my intake of salt. Which has helped me keep my weight more or less under control. I seem to have gravitated to about 202 – 203 lbs for the last few week. I’m hoping to hold it there until the end of my first trimester. At that point I’ll have a full appointment with a midwife and can find out what a reasonable weight gain is for someone of my original weight during the second and third trimesters of pregnancy.

Crazy Weight

January 3, 2013


Before I knew I was pregnant I remember being really frustrated this month at the lack of weight loss. I chalked it up to my body’s normal cycle. Over the last few months I have noticed that about a week and a half before my cycle is due I have a LOT of trouble losing weight, so I figured that was what was up.

Since finding out I am pregnant I have been trying to maintain my weight. Which is largely failing, mostly due to my new salt addiction. I had a good laugh at my charts this morning.

Here is what my chart was looking like for the last three months:


Nice, solid, mostly downward line.

Notice that upwards trend at the end? That’s this past month. Here’s what it looks like up close:

Ghhhaaa! Bleck! Bad Day!

November 29, 2012

Today is not a good mental health day. I’ve been teetering on the edge of this 202.8 lbs = no longer obese milestone for days now. I went down a little bit, then more, then back up, and up and up again. No real progress in over a week.

I’m getting better at talking myself through the bad days. Reminding myself that some days I lose a pound and some days I do not and that is good because my body needs to adjust. That it’s not all about the numbers on the scale it’s about how I feel.

Today I feel bloated, cramped, back aches, hip hurts there’s a new pain in my knee and I feel emotionally miserable. And, the scale went up again. There’s no reason I can identify as to why. I’ve been sticking to paleo, I have not gone over on my calories, but still… no progress.

Here is the choice: I can give up, throw the towel in go get a large bag of chips with sour cream and wallow in my perceived failure. Or, I can stick it out another day and a day after that and the day after that and know that I am doing the right thing and eventually the weight will come off, but only if I keep trying.

I don’t need to do anything different yet, it feels like a long time right now but in the span of success this time round it’s a short time and in the span of time I have tried to lose weight it is an extremely short time.

So, I feel crappy today. I don’t feel like giving myself a pep talk and I do feel like eating crap just to validate my current mind set that this will never work, but there is enough of something inside me to know that I will not do this. I will make it through this day and look forward to better days.

Obese No More! (Still fat)

November 22, 2012

When I started this journey (again) at 237.8 lbs that put me at a BMI of 35.1, which is severely obese or obesity class 2.

< 18.5 – Underweight
18.5 – 24.9 – Healthy Weight
25 – 29.9 – Overweight
30 – 34.9 – Class 1 Obesity (moderately obese)
35 – 39.9 – Class 2 Obesity (severely obese)
> 40 – Class 3 Obesity (morbidly obese)

In some ways I have been more eager to hit the 202.8 lb mark than making my 40 lb goal (although that will be no small achievement). At 202.8 lbs I am officially no longer in an obesity category I am merely overweight.

I know this is really just some invisible, imaginary and in many ways arbitrary line. However it is a line that is felt, especially working in a health-related field. I constantly see the statistic:

“Two-thirds of adults are overweight or obese, and one-third of adults are obese.”

That emphasis on obese makes it feel like those of us who crossed that line are somehow pulling the western world into the dreaded OBESITY EPIDEMIC. We are pulling down the ship. I hear the word obesity and I think of all the stock footage of people’s disembodied stomachs and bottoms jiggling down the sidewalk on the 6:00 pm newscast. I worry that it could be me!

In reality I know it is not true. Even at 237.8 lbs and 5’9″ I looked more like the cute chubby girl, than I did the 6:00 pm news footage. And as Jimmy Moore pointed out in Fat Head, the “obesity epidemic” is in large part created by the CDC’s adoption of BMI. Before widespread knowledge of BMI ‘fatness’ was measured by a number of different factors including weight, percentage body fat and overall size. But since BMI we now do a simple square and lump people into categories.

BMI is a terrible indicator of health:

National Public Radio
Globe and Mail
The Guardian

It ignores other health indicators such as cholesterol and triglycerides, total body fat as compared to body muscle, and cardio-vascular health. And, at 237.8 lbs I was a healthy woman. No arthritis, no elevated levels of any kind to concern my doctor and good heart health.

However, I do have to admit that BMI is, in my case, a reasonable starting point for a health indicator. Yes, BMI may put the super-fit Russel Crowe or Olympic athletes into a morbid obesity category because their muscle mass tips the scales in the wrong direction. But I wasn’t overweight – or obese – because of an over abundance of muscle.

I’m just plain fat and that is okay. There is nothing wrong with being fat. I’m happy and healthy at a BMI of 35.1 and now at a BMI of 29.9. So, why worry about BMI? Why celebrate my transition out of the obesity category and into the overweight category? Well, because as much as I hate to admit it, I’m one of those people the health statistics are warning us about. I’m not an anomaly. I may be healthy now, but if I keep the weight on then I am increasing my chances for a whole host of obesity related health problems. I may never get any of those problems if I am not genetically inclined, but since I don’t know if I am genetically inclined why roll the dice?

I really don’t know how much I have improved my health or decreased my chances of becoming unhealthy by moving out of the obesity category. All the ‘obesity treatments’ simply suggest losing 10 per cent or 20 per cent of the body mass can ‘greatly improve’ health outcomes. So, I’ve done that. And, I think I’ll keep doing it for a bit. I know more than anything keeping the weight off over the long term is what will improve my chances of staying healthy into old age.

Mini-Goal: 35lbs!

November 15, 2012

I have been hovering just above this mini-goal for almost a week now, so I was super happy when the scale showed the loss today. My new weight is 202.8 lbs. The reward for this mini-goal is to go buy new pants – even though I don’t need them yet. I have to admit I’ve been terrible at fulfilling my rewards.

The rewards I have banked include:

222.8 lbs – New top

217.8 lbs – Hair trim

216.8 – Apple movie rental

215.8 – Eye / lip wax (and I REALLY need to get on this one)

212.8 – manicure

207.8 – pedicure

202.8 – new pants

Reaching 35 lbs though puts me in the last leg of this goal. 5 more lbs until I have lost a total of 40 lbs and I put myself under the 200 lb mark. I can do this.

Weekly Check in – Week 36

November 3, 2008

Success, a weekly check in within 1 week. 

I have also been moderately successful at staying or getting back on track. I am still not measuring up to my initial gung-ho (is there a correct way to spell that?) motivated first 12 weeks. However, I am still persisting. I have not given up, at least not entirely, and I’m trudging along. 

What does this mean?

Well it means as compared to my first stellar results of dropping 6 full dress sizes I have nothing new to report in that department. It also means that I have not gained back any size / weight, or if I have it’s not noticeable. 

This is an important realization for me. I often fall victim to the all or nothing mentality. If I can’t do it all then I should just bin it all and start again at some later point in time. The results of this mentality are well documented in the diet industry, my weight loss history, and my closet. All binning the whole thing accomplishes is gaining back all the weight I lost and then some. 

So why should I celebrate not loosing weight? Well, maybe I shouldn’t celebrate that, but I should celebrate not gaining it back or maintaining. I have been the same size for months now. My jeans are not too tight, I fit into winter clothes that looked good on me a few years back. They’re actually a bit loose. 

This is what I must keep in mind:

Why All Or Nothing Doesn’t work

All = weight loss, health & fitness success

Nothing = weight gain, health & fitness failures & harder challenges in the future

Something = Maintenance, holding onto past successes and not creating new future challenges. 

When I get to that place, and I do visit often, where I think that because I can’t do it all I should do none of it, I need to remember that doing nothing is actually a step backwards, if I can just do a bit, then that will keep me where I am, and that, is something. 

The Crunchy Bits

Week 4 Q3 – October 26 – November 1, 2008
Overall: 66%
Household: 57%
Health & Beauty: 86%
Finance: 52%
Career: 48%
Entertainment: 86%

Quarter 3 October 5 – January 3rd, 2008
Running Weekly Average
Overall: 59%
Household: 56%
Health & Beauty: 49%
Finance: 37%
Career: 68%
Entertainment: 87%

Quarter 1:
April 2008 – June 2008
Overall: 55%
Household: 75%
Health & Beauty: 62%
Finance: 46%
Career: 36%
Entertainment: 53%

Quarter 2:
July 2008 – September 2008
Overall: 45%
Household: 63%
Health & Beauty: 55%
Finance: 34%
Career: 30%
Entertainment: 41%

(bi)Weekly Check-in: Weeks 34 & 35

October 27, 2008

It really isn’t a weekly check-in if I don’t check-in. 

Weeks 34 and 35 are my first two weeks of my third quarter on this journey. Like most attempts at weight loss I started out strong and then fade. The good news is this is the first time I’ve still been tracking my successes 9 months into a year. By this point I’ve usually fallen hard, crashed completely and gained back much of the weight I’ve lost in the 1st Quarter. So, while I can’t say the 2nd quarter was a huge weight loss success like the 1st was, nor has the 3rd quarter lived up to the 1st at this point. They are vast improvements over regression. If I have not managed to loose weight in the past 3 months, I have succeeded at not gaining it back. That is in fact no small success. I need to recognize that for what it is, a true accomplishment and the beginning of breaking the wagon jumping, yo-yo dieting cycle. 

So YAY me for achieving something. Now, onwards and upwards.

Week 2 Q3 – October 12 – October 18, 2008
Overall: 57%
Household: 48%
Health & Beauty: 19%
Finance: 43%
Career: 86%
Entertainment: 90% 
Week 3 Q3 – October 19 – October 25, 2008
Overall: 37%
Household: 57%
Health & Beauty: 0%
Finance: 5%
Career: 62%
Entertainment: 71%